When I am working, I want to be gardening.
When I am gardening, I want to be in a hot bath.
When I am in a hot bath, I want to be in a warm shower.
When I am in a warm shower, I don’t want to be wet at all, I just want to sit in my favorite chair.
But when I sit in my favorite chair, I want to ride the recumbent bike.
When I ride the recumbent bike, I want to ride the recumbent bike. But I never want to go to the gym to ride the recumbent bike.
What I always want to do is sleep and experience the feeling of falling asleep or waking up from a good nap.
My mood is clear and my mind is vacant for a few seconds as I wake and just before I drift off to sleep.
I want nothing else but to feel that serenity in those seconds of forgetting that I have Huntington’s disease.
I take a lot of naps.